night jabber

the night moves

bells from doors opening to muggy night air

out on the road there are bumps

noises coming at me from all sides

sensory overload

and i'm going overboard

can't clear my head

you're talkng at me

i try to listen

it's not anything that interests me

so i'm half there

half here

you're going through a list in your mind

i'm going through the check out line

we don't have to interact

we've put systems in place

to keep us from even having to make eye contact

you missed my big eyes

i missed a possible friend

but society doesn't want that

us sticking together

strength is in numbers

and theirs need to be bigger than ours

 

 

 



diphenhydramine hydrochloride

heart racing

sweat beads form on a clammy forehead

i pace

the night rolls on out of control

elton john plays through my head

it's not even a song that i like

"someone saved my life tonight"

it's always the songs you don't know the words to

aj calls them ear worms

i pace 

"i took too much"

i hear this inside my head

the thought is followed by a wavy gravy laugh

i am not an adult size person

my hands tingle

i can feel every drop of blood

being pumped through my body

my heart 

beats

faster

i wonder if i will ever feel normal again

what a strange word

normal

i ponder sitting

i long of dreaming

rest won't come

i pace

the grooves in the floor are deep

and getting deeper

the sun peaks over the mountain

birds chirp

refreshed for singing a new day

i'm still sweating

and don't notice how beautiful their song is

looks like i won't be needing coffee