Trying to Make Walls Feel Like Home

The energy of a room is important. If you would have said this to me a couple of years ago I would have laughed it off with a "whatever, yoda".

     I am hoping to explain a little of why we move so much. It has never had to do with money or problems really. When Aj and I first lived together we shared 480 square feet spread out on two levels.  Now add five or six more people in the warmer months and you've got one happy little mountain top cabin. Sound tight? We were surrounded by comfort, love, conversation and the constant flow of ideas. The energy was good there. Even in winter times when I found myself alone, fire in the stove, I was inspired to create. I was inspired to connect, with myself and with God. But after three months of having no water we decided it was time to move.
    While we are always grateful to find shelter, we have never really found the energy and creativity that was packed up when we left that little shack. Since then we've moved out of places because of colors that made us nauseous, because of poor lighting in depressing winter months, because our cat didn't adjust.  I don't totally blame the dwellings, there have been other changes that need to be accounted for as well, but the house plays a big roll. The cheesy saying goes, "home is where the heart is", and as cliché as that may sound, it's right. Home IS where the heart is, because the heart is where everything else is. And the heart needs rest, the heart needs release. For this to happen it needs comfort and safety. So the "home" may be an actual stick building, it may be a trailer, and yes, it may even be a van down by the river. It's the place, the room, the tent, the cave, the arms where your heart finds peace. Unfortunately, you can't try out a rental home to "experience" it before moving in to it. And what happens if we invest to build a house to find there's no heart in it? What about the people who've got no home, roof or not?

So much to ponder as Aj and I try to make a nest in a new location. Will this be home? We're trying. Some might say that we should just make the most of where we are, but would you continue sitting in a chair if it made your back hurt?