as i walked

today as i walked through a dark tunnel
i realized
that i want to sing
loudly
even when only God is listening
even if other's may think i am strange

today as i walked though a dark tunnel
i realized
that i want to scream
into the sky
for reasons
for no reasons

today as i walked though a dark tunnel
i realized
i want to make the hand sign
for i love you
and show it to the stars
to those who have gone before us
to God

today as i walked though a dark tunnel
i realized
i want the neighbors to wonder
what the hell is going on
i want to bring attention
to bright mismatched colors
i want to bring sounds
to ears that have never heard
i want to bring visions
to minds that thought
they had grown too old to dream

today as i walked through a dark tunnel
i realized
that i had lost myself
the person God made me to be
the bringer of smiles
the summoner of laughs
the wonder and confusion of zambie

today as i walked through a dark tunnel
i realized
that i want to think idealistic thoughts
in a world that will call me
a day dreamer
or uneducated

today as i walked though a dark tunnel
i realized
that i want to scream "fuck the government"
and shun money hungry tax collectors
yet love
like only Christ can love

today as i walked though a dark tunnel
i realized
that i live in a world
that believes that these things
can't happen all at once

today as i walked though a dark tunnel
i realized
that i live in times
that say these ideas
can't coexist

today as i walked though a dark tunnel
i realized
that i am proof
that they can
that they do

today as i walked though a dark tunnel
i saw
the light
that shines
ever so brightly
at the end